Tuesday, August 05, 2008

I am me!

Oh my. How they come out of the woodwork! Lum pe pe lagik aku pas kata aku da nak keluar dari jaga Stacy jerk ada yang da bisik memacam. Grow up la people. It was a business deal.

Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't.

I had a laugh about the whole thing. New resolution for 2008. If it's not too late that is.

Which is don't give a flying.. erm... cluck about what people think.

Anyway, over the course of these few days, I've been deep in thought.

Doesn't happen often, so brace yourselves.

I've had a major epiphany! Yes! An epiphany. Ok... simpler terms. A sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

Was reading back some old blog entries and I went like WHOA!!! Man, can I be nasty.
It was fun to read through some stuff I wrote, painful as they might be to relive, and I discovered in the last couple of years, I've lost my sense of humour!
Camna tuh?

Had a talk with my mentor over things, and with a much clearer head, here I go.
To everyone reading this, if you've been cussed by me, had a fall out with me, been bitch slapped by me... I'm sorry.

Not because I regret what happened as I never believe in regretting things past.
But I am sorry because of how things worked out.

So to all the people who have been on the warpath with me through the years, even the unforgiveable few - peace! Live long, prosperous lives.

I know know how to lead mine.

By putting myself first and foremost. I dissected most of my problems, and you know what, I realise they all bear a strange pattern.

It always involves me putting someone else's needs before mine. And then I eventually end up bitter because the results, or resulting situation langsung tak setimpal with what I expect.
Thus anger, thus resentment, when I feel taken for granted, for a ride,or just plain overlooked.
So no more of that.

Gawd! That feels so good to say. Who would have thought being selfish and thinking of yourself could make you feel this good!

Heh.. apa pun, honestly to everyone, I've moved on to a happier place, so to everyone (malas nak list, though I calculated there should be about six names) let's get on with our lives. Or if you can't, then there's really nothing I can do for you so it's your own problem.

Moving on, aku hari ni worked on some paperwork to tighten up Project R, and worked out the nitty gritty.

It's been a mentally tiring past few days, but now I feel renewed.
Just needed time with myself.

Will blog more tomorrow.

With the thought in mind that the Pesta Malam Indonesia is right around the corner. Woo-hoo! For those of you looking fore more information on the event, CLICK HERE!!! Check out the video messages from the bands!

Six acts will be performing for the eent namely Samsons (yeay!!!), Sheila On 7 (whoopie!), Slank (cool!), Peterpan (ok ok jerk), Ungu (bolehlah) and Dewi Dewi (what the...) Meet Uncle Hussain and Hujan are performing somewhere though I doubt it's the main stage. And it's only RM50 for the whole event! Tickets info below or click the link I gave above for more.

Me bracing myself for a whole lot of partying then - can't wait for Bam and Co. to arrive.
Got to get back to sleep. Lots of stuff to do tomorrow.