Wednesday, June 16, 2004

What Am I Doing Here???

In a cyber cafe in Bukit Bintang. Stupid Salman's store is closed.

So fuck Cheers.

Had a good chin wag with some friends though. One of my friends is having trouble with his boyfriend, who I used to fancy. Suppose the Lord works in mysterious ways.

Kept thinking about my soul mate the whole way and wondered if it was for the better that we broke up. Am going to play Battle Realms awhile and call it a day.

Shit, I have to be in early tomorrow. Fuck this. Just feel so damn lonely. Saw a former best friend of mine, who was accompanied by someone. They were going out cruising. Look back and started thinking about the group of friends I had. We all used to be really tight. Whatever happened to us.

I suppose it's my fault I lost them all, that all of us broke up. We were too similar in the sense that we're all stubborn cows, all adamant to get our own way. But I wonder if things would have been different if I had kept my mouth shut.

After all, I've always played the eldest in the bunch and been the advisor for everything they do... Does that make me a lousy friend? Is honesty such an evil trait now? Even my soulmate can't answer that...